yay i made a blogskin.
*beams.



feel so mel. wahah.
the sky is bleak. the stars are diminishing and fainting. they are extinguished and all hope is lost.

wahha. okay. jkjk. stupid me.

the Os are over. like, finally. and i dont really know what to do with all that free time.


i think i need rest.



i worry too much. and its implicating to me becoming paranoid.







yea, like what you said, i should be less critical and more relaxed. but how? :/



13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. 15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. 16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God. They cannot be numbered! 18 I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!


you are my God, you are my Lord, and I lay down my life for you
You are my Lord, the one I love, no one could ever take your place


you are my God, my comfort, my joy, my warmth
just huddle at your throne. i want to just... lie in your arms.



SICK OF MATH. :/

i'm binging on food and comp and stuff.





I CANT WAIT FOR THE Os TO BE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. *lay on the floor without a limp.



yours, not mine.
Your life, not mine.
Your ways, not mine.


Geez, i keep having this false sense of security that i'll do well for Os without studying. but reality check: NO.



i need to go nearer to him.
anw, i concluded that i study best at night, after 8pm, when the sky is dark. i just feel absolutely comfortable to study.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want to be free. i want to learn guitar. then can minister to myself better during QT.


i need to get near to you. without any songs or agendas. just me and You. in your courtyard, where i set at your feet and talk to you. in your arms, you lift and carry me. you kiss me, and you love me. the strong and mighty arms, that would never drop and let go. for He had paid the price, by bleeding and died.

i want a deeper relationship with You God. not one that i have to talk to you, because it is time to worship. but, simply because you are my Father, that's why I go to you, talk to you and spend time with you.



Dad. Lead me in to your pure ways, that it would really be a sacrifice that causes you to overflow with joy. Let it be something that you can be proud of. Lead and guide me, with your Spirit, to that life I've decided, to the life that you originally had in mind for me.




i want to come home running, just as I am, to see You, just as you are.



HOLY SPIRIT. tell me, how unreal can you be?

the weird thing that I did, at that moment. if it wasnt you, then who could it be?



now, let more of those things happen. or in the first place, none of that. then wow.

somewhat glad. but its so tough. shouldnt have even ventured anywhere near that dark, creepy ally.



timeouttt.
actually.





bring myself back into somethhing. ahhhhhhh.
God, i've rested enoughh. or is it enough for me?

but i hate that constant guilt, and irritating thing probbing in my heart alrdy.



i feel like jonah.
maybe i shall call myself that for my baptism name.






i shall not dao you alrdy.

wa. i feel so good being free and lifted already. its as though, after a long marathon across the country, and the sores simply waine. then, the fatigue gets lifted up. and your spirit is rejuvenated.

yay. i really appreciate alot of people around me. for all the small things that they do. all the people around cheering the Os students like me, my shepherd, my sheep, my caregroup members, spiritual buddies, unit mates and etc!

too many to list alrdy.
eheh. i'm like so on a spree to go sms alot of ppl about my appreciation.
okay, my love language is so evidently wordy.
ahah.



i cant wait for the Os to be over. its such an irritant.


so weird, i cant seem to write anything with chim words on my blog. but its a different story when i'm writting my compo. so what does it say? God! How he simply writes through me, reminding me of all the various words i can use.

quaint, qualms, uncanny.
3 words i've learnt last night. ahah.
quite got mo shui hor, and quite nice to see.

eh. it clearly spells of insecurity. :/

jon, 16. 08/10/90, 23/12/04
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LIKES choir, singing, art and food. i love chocolates and savoury stuff especially.
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